I did not hide. I did not cry.
I did not run. I did not die.
I did not laugh. I did not scream.
All I have is a broken dream.

I did not grin. I did not sigh.
I did not climb to way up high.
I did not shout. I did not pout.
I did not stop . I did not lie.
Life went on, so say good-bye.
I did not whine. I did not scream.
All I have is a broken dream.

So many things have I been trying.
They are not crying.
Or dying. Or lying.
Or sighing.
Instead I will be flying.

I’m sorrowing with glory.
No more sad. No more boring.
Not a chill down my spine.
Life is good and now…it’s mine.

I go to see her.
Some progress has been made.
The tube from her neck gives her breathe.
Gasping and drowsiness fills the room.

Movement is required.
Decisions must be made.
Either keep fighting or let her rest.

Which ever is made it is for the best.
She won’t make it.
My grandma MUST rest.

And she does on March,18,2014

Ahhhh…! No! Please no! WHY?! Fear is necessary.

Don’t worry what seems scary now will help you in the future. When I found out my grandma was in the hospital again, fear overtook me — so much fear. What do you know? My friend went through something similar she was there the whole way through. Man! I was happy she was there. If I wasn’t afraid, I would never know what she went through too.

Another reason fear is important is if you get over that fear it can change the way you look at things. For example, if you are scared of dogs and you get over your fears. You could end up loving the furry animals. Things change and you can others when you overcome your fears. Things can get better.

Fear can seem bad, but everyone has it. Even Taylor Swift gets nervous before she goes on stage, but if she never had the courage she wouldn’t be famous and have a career. Fear can help everyone become something great. If we spend our time in fear now, we won’t pay attention to the greater future.

I tip-toe to the peek hole and see a black suburban. My heart skips a beat as a man exits the vehicle. I hide behind a black chair as the velvet curtains smother me. Only me pinky toe sticks out in the mist of darkness.My skin turns a pale white. I tremble as “Thump…thump…thump” echoes in my ear. I pretend not to notice the pounding on the door.
A man whispers “I know your in there. Don’t make me come in!” It is quiet all you can hear is my heart beating a mile a minute.
I peek out the window and look straight into the eyes of the man. A smirk spreads on his face he brakes the window and sends me swooshing through the air. He knocks down the door and bursts in. He picks me up and drags me into his suburban.
Then I wake up.